I haven’t posted here in a long while. Partially because of time and partially because of other reasons. I haven’t really felt like I’ve had much to say and many of the things that have interested me haven’t gotten enough of my attention for me to write about it.
I think that I’ve “sold out” somewhat on this blog. I started it as a way to express myself and my feelings, really nothing more than a journal put on the internet. Down the line, there was a shift to current events and other things- all of which that keep my interest, but mostly because I wanted other poeple to read and see what your thoughts were. I suppose it fills a need for constructive dialogue, and that is definitely lacking in my life. When I started, blogs weren’t as popular as they are now. There was not a huge blogosphere, and I definitely did not check other people’s blogs every day (as I do now). Blogging is, in some ways, very commercial. And while it’s a good way to keep up with people, it’s not what I’m trying to do here anymore.
At any rate, I realized that for the most part, I don’t REALLY matter to the readers here. You may read what I write and comment and appreciate what I have to say, but it ends there. It’s not like you’re wishing harm or anything, but you’re not worried about me. I’m sure it sounds horrible to say, probably even depressing and bleak, but it is what it is. I’m on a new journey with my writing, and maybe you’ll continue with me for that. If not, that’s cool too.
“I am invisible, understand, simply because people refuse to see me…When they approach me they only see my surroundings, themselves, or figments of their imagination—indeed everything and anything except me…And my problem was that I always tried to go in everyone’s way but my own. I have also been called one thing and then another while no one really wished to hear what I called myself. So after years of trying to adopt the opinions of others I finally rebelled. I am an invisible (wo)man.”
~Ralph Ellison
