“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” – 2 Corinthians 12:9 NIV
I have limits. I have limits, and that’s okay.
If there was one thing that constantly resonated with me over the course of my pregnancy, it was that I have limits.
I grew up being told (and believing) that I could do or be anything. And so I worked (and continue to work) as if that is possible. Adding that work with a hint of perfectionism, and you can only imagine how easily one can spiral out of control.
When I was pregnant, and now in this new period of life with an infant, I’ve had to say no to things. I’ve had to ask for help. I have, in many places, been confronted with the truth that I can’t do it all.
And after being confronted with that truth, I’ve been comforted by the reality that it’s okay.
It’s okay because:
- It’s not for me to do everything.
- It’s not for me to be everywhere.
- I’m not for everyone.
To be clear, when I say “it’s not for me…”, what I mean is that it’s not God’s will for me to do everything, be everywhere, and be for everyone. Our lives have seasons, and in this season, I’m having to reestablish my priorities to make sure I’m keeping the main thing the main thing.
This is challenging for me. There are things that catch my attention–worthy causes, opportunities for personal advancement, events and outings–and more than ever, I find myself saying, “no”. Not because I don’t want to, but because in this season, it’s not for me.
Sometimes I feel bad; I feel guilty for saying no. And sometimes it’s hard to explain. There are times where it’s not a matter of logistics (i.e.: there’s not a scheduling conflict), but it’s a matter of energy preservation. I have to recognize when my tank is full…and when it’s running low. I also have to recognize the situations and circumstances that may take me from full to empty very fast- and govern myself accordingly.
In this season, I’m constantly reminded that good things aren’t always God things. With limited time, energy, and resources, I MUST be purposeful about what I’m doing and why. This season won’t last forever, but if I want the seeds that I’m sowing to reap a mighty harvest, I must be intentional about what I’m planting, where I’m planting, and why I’m planting. And I believe that with that intentionality, God will send others to water those seeds and provide the increase.
I’m grateful for this season, for identifying my weaknesses and limits; so that God may be glorified and strengthened in me.
Until next time…
Be encouraged! Peace and blessings!