wow, the day has finally come. it’s EARLY morning, and in like 12 hours or so, i’ll have been baptized. right now, GOD is SO AMAZING to me and i am just in AWE of him and all the things that he has done in my life.
i know people who have always maintained a close walk with God, or maybe i should say, they’ve always had a relationship of some sort with God. they come from families who are strongly rooted in the church and they understand the importance of family as God has created it and the necessity of prayer and all those sorts of things. it’s kind of difficult to explain, but i guess you know what i mean.
i haven’t always been saved. there are points where i can look back on my life and wonder what i was up to and how i allowed myself to be “that person”. it’s not anything that i can really put into words…all i can say is BUT GOD…
as i stand on the brink of a new level with God, i’m just amazed and i’m so thankful for all the things that GOD has done in my life. i have been abundantly blessed and there are no words to really describe it. all i’ll say is that knowing God opens up an entire new world of fulfillment and satisfaction, and PEACE that you can’t find anywhere else.
be encouraged all…
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“there’s nothing better than knowing Jesus. he can pick you up and turn your life around…”
~from a song at church
“this is the level. this is the harvest. this is the day for you to manifest your promises. this is the moment. this is the season for a breakthrough…”
~israel and new breed
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and lastly…my story…just as an acknowledgement of how far i’ve come and all that GOD has done:
this is my testimony
something i usually don’t share because people usually don’t care about the things i’ve overcome or the things i’ve had to bear
it’s usually about what you see or who you think i could be but not about what i am spiritually
but it’s been a long time coming…it’s been a long time coming
when my father wasn’t there, when my “friends” couldn’t be found, when i used the physical to make me emotionally sound;
when the money wasn’t there, when i had no reason to care, when my fear of facing god was more than i could bear;
when i had nothing to give, when i had no reason to live;when i fell short time and time again, when i knowingly committed sin after sin;
when the reflection in the mirror wasn’t what i wanted to see, when i begged god to come in and change me
and i see i knew better.
i had always been the over-involved church kid.
i knew that in the beginning there was the word and the word was god.
but with all the knowledge i had gained over time, i couldn’t fix my mind to seek god to find the answers to the questions i was asking;
i couldn’t fix my mind to seek god to find the fulfillment for what my spirit and soul were lacking
but god found me…in the midst of a mess, a test, a trial, a tribulation.
in spite of all the mistakes i had been making, god continued to order the steps i was taking
i’m glad i can look at my past and see that troubles don’t last;
when my soul was broken god placed it in a cast…
life beyond the well... 