life beyond the well…


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In the Middle…

I hate being in the middle. Maybe it’s some weird psychological thing that I have because I’m the oldest child. Maybe it’s because I don’t like confined spaces. I’m not sure what it is. All I know is that I hate being the middle. Of anything.

I don’t like the middle seat on airplanes or in cars. I don’t like being in the middle of the line. I kinda hate that I have the middle office. There’s just something about the middle that bothers me.

This can be difficult because life has given me quite a few situations where I’m in the middle. And honestly, it’s a challenge. What I find most challenge is the time where I’m stuck in the middle of a blessing.

Being stuck in the middle of a blessing seems like a nice place to be. You’re receiving the very thing that God promised and that you believed Him for. Your life is moving forward, and it seems like things are coming together.  But then something changes.  You realize that this blessing requires more than you expected.  You begin to feel that you don’t have what you need for this blessing.  This new blessing just doesn’t fit well.  It’s something that you have to grow into.

Ahhh growth.  It’s a sneaky little sucker that just won’t quit.  Just when I think that I’m in a good place and things are moving right along, I get bitten by this growth bug.  It’s what forces me to change, realizing that if I’ve been blessed with more, I have to not only do more, I have to be more.

But sometimes it’s not just growth that is challenging about being in the middle of a blessing.  It’s also difficult because you’re in an unfamiliar place.  Your guards are up, your attention to detail is high because you have to soak in every piece of knowledge to continue to learn and thrive.  You don’t know who to trust or to rely on, and you’re forced to just keep going.  Day in and day out, you have to keep moving.  You have to keep moving because it’s your only option; because not moving, standing still, is actually sinking back and getting behind.  You have to keep moving because the only way to get TO is to go THROUGH.

If there was another option, you’d have surely taken it.  Because who chooses to go through something that’s difficult, even if it IS a blessing?  However, if we are honest with ourselves, we can admit that there are things that we’ve learned through those difficult times.  As the more seasoned saints would say, “I wouldn’t take nothin’ for my journey now”.

So, be encouraged.  If you find yourself “in the middle”, remember that you have to go THROUGH to get TO.  Being in the middle of a blessing is one of the best places you can be- even if it doesn’t feel like it.  But our journey is more than feelings, it is one of faith.

 

Some scriptures to encourage you while you’re “in the middle” of your blessing:

“So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded.  You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised.” –Hebrews 10:35-36

“Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.  Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.”- James 1:2-4


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Your Faithfulness is Great- Celebrating 29

Today is my birthday.  I am 29.

It’s kind of hard to grasp that I am ALMOST 30.  My twenties have been great.  I really liked being 28.  A lot of good things happened this past year.  As always, I have been and continue to be incredibly blessed.

I am a birthday person, meaning I look forward to birthdays and I enjoy celebrating them.  Not just my birthday, but the birthdays of others as well.  I really enjoy celebrating life; another year of overcoming challenges, delighting in blessings, and growing into who God would have us to be.  To me, there’s nothing like it.

As I mentioned before, I’m in the midst of planning a wedding (60 days!), and so I haven’t really given much thought to my birthday this year.  I just finished celebrating the hubs-to-be’s birthday (his birthday is August 31), and have been feeling sort of pressed to handle this wedding stuff (those invitations aren’t going to mail themselves).  So, while my natural tendency is to be curious about what the hubs-to-be has planned, I haven’t given it much thought…until this past Sunday.

This past Sunday at church, the worship team was singing a song that I love.  I can’t find it to post it, but essentially, it’s a newer/more modern version of the classic hymn “Great is thy Faithfulness”.  The lyrics are simple:

“Your faithfulness is great.  Your faithfulness is great.  Your faithfulness is great- great is thy faithfulness.  Morning by morning, new mercies I see. Great is thy faithfulness.  Great is thy faithfulness.  All I have needed, thy hand hath provided.  Great is thy faithfulness.  Great is thy faithfulness.”

As I was listening to those lyrics, I began to reflect on what it has meant over the course of my life.

“Morning by morning, new mercies I see.”

Yes, this is true.  But it has been true- for 29 years of mornings.  Do you know how many mornings that is?  Let me help you with the math: 10, 594.  God has provided new mercies for me for the past 10, 594 days- or the duration of my life.

“All I have needed, thy hand hath provided…”

The provision of God has been in, over, and through my life.  God is SO big that He can provide for me at any point of my life, with the knowledge of what is needed both then, and for the future.  God has intricately woven together the fabric of my life in such a way that the provision given from one day when I was 12 can create a necessary life experience for me and the provision He gave as a 26 year old.

“Your faithfulness is great…”

Every day of my life- all 10, 594 of them; God has been faithful to me.  God has been faithful even when my relationship with Him was forced, lacking, nonexistent, growing; when it left something to be desired, God was STILL faithful and didn’t leave me.  Yes, God, Your faithfulness is great.

For the past 10, 594 days…or

254,256 hours…or

15, 255, 360 minutes…or

915,321,600 seconds…

Your faithfulness has been great.  And for that I am grateful.