“a lot of times, it’s difficult for me to see how i’ve grown because there are times where i don’t feel as if i’ve made many changes. but sometimes, being around others allows you to see the changes in your mentality and your position…and it gives you a different perspective on what it means to grow and change. i’m not where i ought to be…but i’m grateful that i’m not where i used to be.”
~erin davis, 06.28.05

“our greatest danger in life is permitting urgent things to crowd out the important; to fail to live by a clear set of priorities. everybody is living for something. the main thing is to keep the main thing the main thing.”

Recently (using this term loosely) I have neglected what is most important. I have allowed myself to adjust my priorities; to allow urgent things to crowd out the things that are most important. And so, it’s time to come clean about that…

I have engaged in fruitless relationships in hopes of bearing fruit. I have ignored the nudging of God or the tugging at my heart that indicates when to let go and/or move on. I have placed people in places of importance in my life when they in fact warrant no place at all.

I have used people and things to fill voids that I should be asking God to fill. I have become so obsessed with doing things and fulfilling obligations that I have ignored my relationship with God. I have become more focused with my future instead of nurturing the relationship with the one who has orchestrated my future.

I am coming clean, at least on this space, because I believe that the people who read this believe in the power of prayer and that they will hopefully be praying for me. Additionally, I believe that it’s important to divulge our shortcomings so that they can possibly help others.

So, that’s what’s up with me. Keep me in your prayers. Be encouraged…

“That relationship died, for you to be born, you worth more than anything you could cop in a store, for you to grow he had to go, so what you stoppin him for?”
~Common

Torn and confused, wasted and used;
Reached the crossroad, which path would I choose?
Stuck and frustrated, I waited, debated;
For something to happen that just wasn’t fated.
Thought what I wanted was something I needed…
My soul was weary, but now it’s replenished;
Content because that part of my life is finished…
But my heart is gold, I took back my soul
And totally let my creator control
The life which was his to begin with…
~Lauryn Hill