this is a brief part of the spoken word piece that i performed at World Overcomers Christian Church at a talent show in early December…

this is my testimony

something i usually don’t share because people usually don’t care about the things i’ve overcome or the things i’ve had to bear

it’s usually about what you see or who you think i could be but not about what i am spiritually

but it’s been a long time coming…it’s been a long time coming

when my father wasn’t there, when my “friends” couldn’t be found, when i used the physical to make me emotionally sound;

when the money wasn’t there, when i had no reason to care, when my fear of facing god was more than i could bear;

when i had nothing to give, when i had no reason to live;

when i fell short time and time again, when i knowingly committed sin after sin;

when the reflection in the mirror wasn’t what i wanted to see, when i begged god to come in and change me

and i see i knew better.

i had always been the over-involved church kid.

i knew that in the beginning there was the word and the word was god.

but with all the knowledge i had gained over time, i couldn’t fix my mind to seek god to find the answers to the questions i was asking;

i couldn’t fix my mind to seek god to find the fulfillment for what my spirit and soul were lacking

but god found me.

in the midst of a mess, a test, a trial, a tribulation

in spite of all the mistakes i had been making, god continued to order the steps i was taking…

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there’s more to the piece…but the part above is, to me, the most critical part…it’s my story…