life beyond the well…

life comes at you hard

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so i definitely feel like my life right now is best described by the nationwide insurance commercials, where they say “life comes at you hard”. i so agree. i’ve been trying to hold things together, but i feel like everything is happening all at once. i’m definitely burnt out from school and all things related to school. along with that, my financial situation SUCKS but i’ve been working and there have been unexpected expenses that have thrown me off. i’m very frustrated because i don’t have the time to work another job, although i need to…

i can’t wait to be done with school…or to be done with everything that takes up so much of my time. i hate feeling like everything is a burden, and i definitely don’t like not having time for myself. by the time i get home, i just go to bed because i don’t feel like being bothered with much else. while i’m definitely getting my sleep, i always wake up and don’t feel anymore refreshed than i did before i went to bed–which makes me want to sleep even more. isn’t sleeping a lot a sign of depression? i wonder…cause i might be on the brink of that…

i feel bad because i feel like i’m not being appreciative of the things that god has done for me by feeling the way that i feel. but at the same time, i’m truly at a point where i don’t know what else to do. i feel like i’ve been trying to seek god, but it’s not working. i feel like everytime i try to get closer to god to come out of whatever funk i’m in, i just sink further and further. i’m at a point in my life where i don’t believe in seeking others for help…ultimately people will fail you and that’s been a consistent theme for me as well. truth is, everyone has something going on…so why should whatever i’m going through be added to your situation?

all i know is that it’s going to take extreme prayer for me to get through this last part of my collegiate career. i’ve got papers due, tests, and everything else going on…

i’ll be excited for it to be over…

Author: erin.almond

God-chaser. NC native, now planted in Jacksonville, FL. Happily married to a handsome church-planting pastor. I am easily excited by Jesus, education, cupcakes, Moleskine notebooks, and Pepsi. Overwhelmed by God's amazing grace, undeserving of His love and mercy.

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