Seriously, I don’t know if I’m coming or going. Teaching is HARD. Today, I wanted to run out of the classroom and go hide in the restroom and cry.
It’s one thing to work with students who want to learn, who come to class prepared, and who are eager (or at least good pretenders) about the material. It’s another thing to have to consistently try to get students motivated, to have to YELL over students, and to talk to students who feel that you need to explain yourself to them.
Today, I found myself wondering why I was here. I was wondering why do I put in almost 12 hours of work, to come home and work some more, to come home and work on the weekend- to have to deal with that. What made me feel like that was the right choice? And why, despite all of that, do I want to go back tomorrow with another plan, to try again? What have I signed up for?
Right now, I’m in need of prayers, the weekend, or some hurricane days. While just one will do, I’ll accept all of them…
Until next time…
September 3, 2008 at 12:21 am
Hang in there. Teachers mold the minds of the future, and if you touch just one student I should think the job worth the troubles. My daughter just began her teaching career last week and she is having the same issues as you, but, like you, she does it because she cares. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Thank you for being a teacher.
September 3, 2008 at 10:33 am
If you truly love it, and you feel like it’s your calling, press on sista.
Your in my thoughts…
September 3, 2008 at 1:47 pm
Dang, that’s rough. I definitely feel where you’re coming from though. I’ve always had respect for teachers because I KNOW I could never do it. Well, I guess you’re just going to have to see how things go. If it goes well, stay with it. If not, get into another profession, people do it all the time. Sometimes you have to try things until you find your niche. Besides, you’re more than qualified to do whatever you want Erin! 🙂
September 6, 2008 at 3:28 pm
I think you do it, and continue doing it because you have a good heart, strong belief, and compassion for your work and your students………..
This is a nice blog. I like the design and your conversation. I shall return.
September 13, 2008 at 4:06 pm
Dang, EDav… I didn’t know it was like that (I’m just now going back and checking multiple posts)… We’re praying for you, and call us when you can…
We’ve been there… But, here’s the blessing – it will pass… You will learn, and you will get better…
Also, don’t take for granted the impact you are already making… Your presence, compassion, and work ethic are touching lives… You may not receive immediate feedback from your students, but find solace in the words of the ppl on this blog… and, the kids will come back and tell you later that you changed their lives…