life beyond the well…

Managing Faith

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Is it even possible to manage your faith?  My thought is no- that your faith is/should be such an overwhelming aspect of your life that it, along with your convictions should dictate your decisions and dictate your life.

If only it were that easy.

I always find my faith to be just enough for where I am, but I have a hard time envisioning it to be enough for what I need, or where I want to go.  I have faith that God has a reason for me being in Florida.  I don’t feel that I have enough faith that God will place me at the right church, with the right people, and help me make the right friends that will make living in Florida worthwhile.

I feel like faith requires a certain diligence, that I honestly haven’t freely and consistently exhibited in this process.  I have visited churches regularly, but not consistently.  I have prayed regularly, but not consistently.  I have read the Bible regularly, but not consistently.  All that said, I’ve been consistently frustrated about not having a church home and feeling that my requests to God have been ignored.

Can I even do that?  Can I really be frustrated with God when I haven’t consistently done my part?  I don’t think so.

Essentially, I feel disconnected.  I can listen to as many pod casts of church services, blast gospel music in my car and on my Ipod, but without the fellowship of believers that a church provides, I feel in the dark.  Literally.

So, I guess the goal for now is to be consistent, be faithful, and to wait and EXPECT God to act.  And try to be encouraged in the process…

Author: erin.almond

God-chaser. NC native, now planted in Jacksonville, FL. Happily married to a handsome church-planting pastor. I am easily excited by Jesus, education, cupcakes, Moleskine notebooks, and Pepsi. Overwhelmed by God's amazing grace, undeserving of His love and mercy.

One thought on “Managing Faith

  1. I know exactly where you’re coming from. I myself struggle with this. I think part of the frustration does come from trying to “manage” our faith; faith is definitely larger than that, and by trying to manage it we are limiting God. Now as I say that, I’m working on that myself.

    I also feel you on feeling disconnected without a local church home. I love, love, love, my home church in TX, and it has been extremely hard to find anything in NC that compares. At times, I even wonder if I ever will find one here, or whether it’s just a matter of holding on until God moves me to another place or even back to TX. However, again, I have to wonder if that’s me putting limits on God.

    I think you have it right though, work on being consistent, faithful, and wait and Expect God to act; He always does.

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