Is it even possible to manage your faith? My thought is no- that your faith is/should be such an overwhelming aspect of your life that it, along with your convictions should dictate your decisions and dictate your life.
If only it were that easy.
I always find my faith to be just enough for where I am, but I have a hard time envisioning it to be enough for what I need, or where I want to go. I have faith that God has a reason for me being in Florida. I don’t feel that I have enough faith that God will place me at the right church, with the right people, and help me make the right friends that will make living in Florida worthwhile.
I feel like faith requires a certain diligence, that I honestly haven’t freely and consistently exhibited in this process. I have visited churches regularly, but not consistently. I have prayed regularly, but not consistently. I have read the Bible regularly, but not consistently. All that said, I’ve been consistently frustrated about not having a church home and feeling that my requests to God have been ignored.
Can I even do that? Can I really be frustrated with God when I haven’t consistently done my part? I don’t think so.
Essentially, I feel disconnected. I can listen to as many pod casts of church services, blast gospel music in my car and on my Ipod, but without the fellowship of believers that a church provides, I feel in the dark. Literally.
So, I guess the goal for now is to be consistent, be faithful, and to wait and EXPECT God to act. And try to be encouraged in the process…
September 29, 2008 at 9:31 am
I know exactly where you’re coming from. I myself struggle with this. I think part of the frustration does come from trying to “manage” our faith; faith is definitely larger than that, and by trying to manage it we are limiting God. Now as I say that, I’m working on that myself.
I also feel you on feeling disconnected without a local church home. I love, love, love, my home church in TX, and it has been extremely hard to find anything in NC that compares. At times, I even wonder if I ever will find one here, or whether it’s just a matter of holding on until God moves me to another place or even back to TX. However, again, I have to wonder if that’s me putting limits on God.
I think you have it right though, work on being consistent, faithful, and wait and Expect God to act; He always does.