Is it even possible to manage your faith? My thought is no- that your faith is/should be such an overwhelming aspect of your life that it, along with your convictions should dictate your decisions and dictate your life.
If only it were that easy.
I always find my faith to be just enough for where I am, but I have a hard time envisioning it to be enough for what I need, or where I want to go. I have faith that God has a reason for me being in Florida. I don’t feel that I have enough faith that God will place me at the right church, with the right people, and help me make the right friends that will make living in Florida worthwhile.
I feel like faith requires a certain diligence, that I honestly haven’t freely and consistently exhibited in this process. I have visited churches regularly, but not consistently. I have prayed regularly, but not consistently. I have read the Bible regularly, but not consistently. All that said, I’ve been consistently frustrated about not having a church home and feeling that my requests to God have been ignored.
Can I even do that? Can I really be frustrated with God when I haven’t consistently done my part? I don’t think so.
Essentially, I feel disconnected. I can listen to as many pod casts of church services, blast gospel music in my car and on my Ipod, but without the fellowship of believers that a church provides, I feel in the dark. Literally.
So, I guess the goal for now is to be consistent, be faithful, and to wait and EXPECT God to act. And try to be encouraged in the process…