life beyond the well…

So Anxious

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I’m a week into Winter Break, which means I’m feeling refreshed and recharged.  I’ve had time to catch up on sleep, get back on a regular eating schedule, and tackle some of the basic tasks that I tend to neglect once I’m back in the habit of work and school.  I’ve also had time to reflect on this year and do some goal setting for next year.

2012 is going to be big.  Life changes of epic proportions.  Very little about my life will be the same one year from today.

I’m excited about what God is showing me, but as I begin to prepare and put things in motion, I feel really anxious.  I feel anxious, mostly because I can’t see how I’m going to get from here to there.  And for someone like me, that’s difficult.

I am a planner and a processor.  I spend lots of time thinking about the proper way to execute something (and why that is the proper way as opposed to another way), and then planning the execution so that it is as close to flawless as possible.  I guess I’m a bit of a perfectionist.

So, for me to know and understand that major changes are on the horizon and not have a clear vision as to how it might come to pass is slightly unsettling.  It’s unsettling because I, like many of us, like to be in the know.  I like to have an understanding of what is going to happen and why.  However, in this situation, I have an understanding of the WHY, but not the HOW.  Equally unnerving.

Nevertheless, I am confident of God’s plans to give me a hope and a future, knowing that I must trust in Him with all my heart and lean not unto my own understanding; acknowledging Him in every way.  And, I need not be anxious about anything, but in everything submit my requests to Him, and He will give me a peace that transcends all understanding.  Including my own.

Here’s to the next chapter; loving God, loving people, and seeking His will and fulfilling His purpose for my life.

Peace and blessings…

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Author: erin.almond

God-chaser. NC native, now planted in Jacksonville, FL. Happily married to a handsome church-planting pastor. I am easily excited by Jesus, education, cupcakes, Moleskine notebooks, and Pepsi. Overwhelmed by God's amazing grace, undeserving of His love and mercy.

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