When I was teaching, we used to suffer from this condition that we called the “February Blues”. It used to hit us toward the end of February, after the newness of the year and semester had worn off, and we realized that there would be many weeks of nonstop school before any sign of a break. The grind of teaching, grading, correcting, and being physically and mentally present day in and day out starts to wear on you. You’ve either seen progress in meeting your goals, or you haven’t; and it’s becoming more difficult to stay motivated. The cold weather becomes annoying and gloomy, and you long for the bright and warm days of spring.
Though I’m no longer teaching, I’ve found myself with my own “February Blues”. Though I’ve been fairly consistent with my workout routine, and I’m seeing results; I haven’t been as successful with my productivity towards my dissertation. I’ve been better about getting to work on time, but I’m struggling with being as organized as I feel that I should be. While I’ve had several thoughts swirling in my head (and drafts written), I’ve found it challenging to complete entries for this blog because I just haven’t felt super inspired.
And yet, I must press on.
I have to press on because the “February Blues” don’t last forever. I have to press on because I don’t have time to waste wallowing in my feelings. I’m on a journey, in the middle of a process; and it continues despite how I feel or what I see. I can’t allow myself to get so caught up in these fleeting feelings during this “gloomy time” that I find myself unprepared when the sunny time comes. I have to continue to prepare myself; continue to exercise and strengthen my faith regardless of how I feel. I’m believing for more than I can see right now, so I have to act like it, move like it, talk like it until I DO see it.
And then I have to believe for more.
What encourages me the most is knowing that “February Blues” don’t last long. Soon, I’ll be at a point where I can’t recall feeling this way, and I’ll be enjoying the blossoms of spring. As my pastor says, “Anything temporary can be tolerated.” Since I know this isn’t forever, I will continue to trust, believe, and press my way. And when the next round of “February Blues” come, I’ll be encouraged because I’ve been here before; because I’ll know what it takes to get through- and I’ll hunker down and do it.
“February Blues”- I’m coming for you! No more holding me back!
Peace and Blessings!