so…no more project uplift! i don’t know if i’m really excited about that or not. however, i will say that i had an AWESOME time with the staff. we completed it with a trip to myrtle beach, which was A LOT of fun. everytime i’m around my uplift staff, i feel like i get the best ab workout from laughing so hard. from dancing in the cage at freaky tiki to playing big booty in the parking lot, in the van, and on the street…i TRULY had a great time. i’m definitely gonna miss my PU fam, and they also made me realize how much i love carolina. good times, great oldies.

being on the uplift retreat also made me realize how grateful i am for the growth that i’ve experienced in my life over the past couple of years. a lot of times, it’s difficult for me to see how i’ve grown because there are times where i don’t feel as if i’ve made many changes. but sometimes, being around others allows you to see the changes in your mentality and your position…and it gives you a different perspective on what it means to grow and change. i’m not where i ought to be…but i’m grateful that i’m not where i used to be. i’m just taking things one day at a time.

hollaaaaaa…

so…it’s officially summer. feels weird to say that because CLEARLY college students have been without serious class since like april. however, today is the first day of summer…and the weather for this north carolina area is beautiful. although it is super hot, there’s nothing like a sunny day in chapel hill. i swear, i love it here. i dunno what i’ma do when i head to UGA.

last week was the last week of project uplift. all in all, the program went smoothly, and i’m glad that i participated this year. i got the chance to meet a lot of ’07 and ’08 that i might not have met otherwise. additionally, the participants were great…brilliant in some senses and they made me excited about my future as a teacher.

in other news, i really miss my friends. i’m excited that everyone has gotten started on their life…with the grown people jobs and stuff, but i feel like i’m just being stagnant. i’ve been searching for jobs, but it seems like nothing is taking off for me. i feel like i’m being left behind…i don’t have any money to do things that i would enjoy doing (going to the movies, etc) so my life just consists of going to work (although i have yet to get a paycheck), and soon…packing to move. i guess i just feel that all of my friends are getting blessed with wonderful opportunities, and i’m just struggling. i know it’s not right to feel like that and to look at other people’s situations, but it’s hard…

i’m trying to find a way to praise god for this time and for this circumstance, but it’s difficult. i feel bad because i know that i’m being ungrateful and uappreciaitive of the blessings that i’ve been given…and it’s not that i don’t appreciate these things, it’s just that i want more. i want the best of what god has to offer, and i know it gets better than this. god is a god of excellence, and he intends to prosper his people…i don’t think that barely getting by was a part of that plan at all.

so…i guess i’m excited about going to uga because of the opportunity to start over…fresh and new. but there are so many things that i’m uncertain about. i just don’t know whether i’m coming or going…

soliciting prayers…and trying to remember jeremiah 29:11