so…it’s officially summer. feels weird to say that because CLEARLY college students have been without serious class since like april. however, today is the first day of summer…and the weather for this north carolina area is beautiful. although it is super hot, there’s nothing like a sunny day in chapel hill. i swear, i love it here. i dunno what i’ma do when i head to UGA.

last week was the last week of project uplift. all in all, the program went smoothly, and i’m glad that i participated this year. i got the chance to meet a lot of ’07 and ’08 that i might not have met otherwise. additionally, the participants were great…brilliant in some senses and they made me excited about my future as a teacher.

in other news, i really miss my friends. i’m excited that everyone has gotten started on their life…with the grown people jobs and stuff, but i feel like i’m just being stagnant. i’ve been searching for jobs, but it seems like nothing is taking off for me. i feel like i’m being left behind…i don’t have any money to do things that i would enjoy doing (going to the movies, etc) so my life just consists of going to work (although i have yet to get a paycheck), and soon…packing to move. i guess i just feel that all of my friends are getting blessed with wonderful opportunities, and i’m just struggling. i know it’s not right to feel like that and to look at other people’s situations, but it’s hard…

i’m trying to find a way to praise god for this time and for this circumstance, but it’s difficult. i feel bad because i know that i’m being ungrateful and uappreciaitive of the blessings that i’ve been given…and it’s not that i don’t appreciate these things, it’s just that i want more. i want the best of what god has to offer, and i know it gets better than this. god is a god of excellence, and he intends to prosper his people…i don’t think that barely getting by was a part of that plan at all.

so…i guess i’m excited about going to uga because of the opportunity to start over…fresh and new. but there are so many things that i’m uncertain about. i just don’t know whether i’m coming or going…

soliciting prayers…and trying to remember jeremiah 29:11

so…i haven’t written in forever…but i’ll come with some quick updates. i GRADUATED from UNC. my graduation weekend was definitely a blessing. it was great to be surrounded by family and friends to celebrate the great occasion. i’m definitely proud of myself for what i have accomplished and i’m looking forward to the next step in life- UGA!

following graduation, i set off on a 7 day cruise with two of my favoritest gals: nicole and conitras. we went to key west, belize, cozumel, and progreso…and it was definitely one of the most amazing experiences of my life. everywhere we went was so beautiful. the food was great, the drinks were great…i feel blessed to have been able to travel like that…AND i’m looking forward to the next cruise.

now my life is filled with preparations for grad school…trying to find a place to stay, finding a job, that sort of thing. it’s crazy to be on campus working with minority affairs and doing project uplift, but to realize that i’m not a student anymore. i love carolina…and i never thought i’d quote petey pablo BUT…”everybody knows carolina’s my home; this is my heart, baby, this is my soul…”.

so the post-grad life is cool…actually a little more relaxing in some ways…and a little more stressful in others. i’m enjoying every bit of it, though. what is kinda sad though…is that i’m really not around my friends. we’re all split up and handling business in different places. yet and still, i’m grateful that god saw fit to put us together and i know that we’ll be reunited when the time is right. on another note, i’m also grateful for the time that i have alone…allows me to get my thoughts together and to prepare myself for the next phase. god is gonna take me all the way to the top…and i can’t wait!

peace and blessings