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clearing out and cleaning up

Usually when I start posts here, I have an idea of what I’m going to say. I can’t say that’s the case this time. I just know that the title completely describes what needs to take place in my life.

I feel like one of the biggest challenges I face is to not let ANYTHING completely take over my life. For the last few weeks, I’ve been somewhere between working ALL the time and/or at church ALL the time for various meetings and commitments. I have a ridiculously long list of things that I need to do (laundry, cooking, going to the dry cleaners) and I never feel like there’s enough time to get them done. On the nights when I’m not overly committed to something else, I’m usually too tired or unmotivated to do anything meaningful. I want the professional success and it’s important to me to serve Christ in the ways that I’ve been called to do so. I don’t feel that I should need an extra 2-3 hours in the day to do so.

While I’m feeling a bit over-committed in some areas of my life, I feel that I’m really not doing well with dealing with people. I’ve gone through phases since being in Athens where I’ve felt lonely and homesick, and I kinda feel that way now. But there’s also a different component to this, where I actually just crave an inner circle; people who know me and understand me and love me for me. While I love and appreciate being on my own, I wish that I could have the opportunity to do cocktails with the girls or have a movie night. I guess I feel detached from everything and everyone…including myself.

At the end of the day, I can live with myself- the mistakes that I’ve made, the regrets, the hopes for the future. Trying to navigate it and understand it is much more difficult. I feel like there is a severe need to clear out some things and reorganize my life. I wish I knew where to begin…

“But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.” ~Matthew 6:33

“I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.” ~Psalm 27:13-14


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Favor Ain’t Fair

I’ve always heard people say “favor ain’t fair” when talking about how God bestows his blessings. While I have always agreed, I would say that I haven’t always felt that I have found favor with God. However, lately I have really been getting a better understanding of how true it is that favor isn’t fair.

As I have grown and as I look back over the years, I can honestly say that I am SO grateful for the favor of God in my life. It’s not anything that I can explain, but when I look at some people in my family; situations they’ve been through, obstacles they’ve had to overcome…it really amounts to the tremendous favor of God. There’s not much that separates me from my family members. We grew up in the same area. Went to the same schools. Made some of the same bad decisions. Yet, I’m in Georgia, with a Master’s degree; a job, making it in the world…with no kids or anything like that. And it’s not to say anything negative about my family or other people, but I can definitely recognize the favor of God in my life.

I came to the conclusion that it must now be my responsibility to act on that- to uphold my end of the bargain with God. Favor isn’t fair…but it’s not free, either. As Luke 12:48 says, “… From everyone who has been given much, much will be demanded; and from the one who has been entrusted with much, much more will be asked.”

Wishing you the best of God’s blessings and his favor! Be encouraged!