life beyond the well…


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Belated Merry Christmas

I’m a few days late, but Merry Christmas to those who still take the time to read this blog.  It’s been a delightful time, and I’m happy to report that this blog is coming to you live from the family computer of my parents’ home in Arizona.

There’s been a lot going on since the last time I posted.  The unfortunate being that a horrible sickness took over my school, affecting students and teachers alike.  I’m sad to say that I was involved.  I had to take two days off of work (which I HATE), to take care of me.  After I thought that I was getting better, I ended up getting worse…which resulted in a trip to an urgent care facility to get prescriptions.  Three sets of medications and 6 days later, I’m much better.  I still have a cough, but I can talk, breathe, and eat something other than soup.  I feel like I’m at 100%.

Now, I mentioned that I HATE missing work.  I do.  As much as my students tend to drive me CRAZY with their antics, we have a type of organized chaos that we flow with.  When I’m not there, they really let lose, and it’s nearly impossible to stay on course.  I always dread the notes that I will see from the substitute teachers about their behavior.  I haven’t figured out a way to curb poor behavior when I’m absent (I don’t believe that I should bribe them, because then it’s about the reward, and not understanding that their behavior should be up to par PERIOD).  If you have any suggestions about that, let me know.

But we’ll fast forward.  On Christmas Eve, I arrived in Phoenix.  Thankfully, my flight was smooth.  Flying is such an experience for me.  I really dislike it.  If its an afternoon/evening flight, you best believe that I’ve had a glass of wine prior to getting on the flight to help take the edge off.  Once we’ve taken off, I’m in the air negotiating with Jesus the whole way.  At any hint of turbulence, I’m usually telling Jesus about how it’s way too soon for me to die, and I know that He wouldn’t have it that way because I haven’t finished all of the things that He’s put on the “to-do” list.  I know that He’s in control, but I’m glad He’s a good listener.

Since being home, I’ve enjoyed the camaraderie and love that can only be provided by your family.  You know, the relaxation and brutal honesty that makes all the other things in your life seem to be trivial.  I miss having family close so that I can have some sort of refuge to escape from my regularly scheduled life.  It’s just something about having people there, in your corner, on your team, unconditionally.  I love it.  I love being home, and I’m hoping that I find a way to channel and create the energy that I have now when I return to Florida.

Now for the Christmas highlights.  The big winner in the gift department seemed to be Mom, which isn’t any surprise.  My stepfather usually goes way above and way beyond the call of duty, and she’s always happy.  As for us kids, this was the season of money and electronics- we each ended up with a gadget that we desired, as well as some money in our pockets.  Gotta love that.

There are some things from this season that I’ve noticed for myself, which have hinted at personal growth.  For one, I made, and for the most part, stuck with my Christmas budget.  I won’t be angry or crying when credit card statements come next month, because they weren’t used.  I love that I won’t be the least bit surprised about that.  Along those same lines, I really feel that I’ve done well with exercising discipline in the post-Christmas blitz.  There was a point where I’d be maximizing this shopping season for all its worth, getting all I can from these sales.  Now, I’m more about things that have worth, and none of those can be found at a sale.  It’s a welcome change…in addition to keeping some change in my pocket.

That said, it has been a Merry Christmas for me, and I do hope that yours has been as well.  I pray that you’ve been blessed with the precious gifts of the season, none of which can be found on sale. 

Until next time…peace and blessings to you!


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it’s been entirely too long

I don’t know why I haven’t posted.  It’s been so long since I’ve started a post, that now WordPress has this new design.  I’m super confused.  I’ll consider this incentive to post more often.

It’s December.  As of today, I’ve been working at my school for 4 months.  The best way that I can sum up my experience is with an India.Arie quote:  “So far from where I started out, so far from where I want to be.”  I’m excited and thankful because I’ve seen growth and progress in my teaching, as well as in my students.  I’m energized because I know that I have many more areas to improve upon.  That knowledge is part of what keeps me going back to school day after day.  And as it is with many things, there are good days and bad days.  Sometimes I feel like I’m living for the weekend…which subsequently makes me feel extremely guilty.  If I’m living for the 2.5 days that exist from Friday afternoon until Monday morning, what does that say about the worth I’m placing on the other 4.5 days?  The challenge is to not take things personally, to be in the profession, but not OF the profession.  But I feel that having that mentality would not only cheat me, but it would cheat my students of having a teacher who cares enough to give her best.

On to other things- isn’t it weird that as we get older, we become more cognizant of our insecurities, strengths, and weaknesses?  At 25, I feel more confident and increasingly more aware of my abilities- yet I also feel more insecure about my weaknesses.  I’ve always felt like I’ve had it together.  But when my inabilities are introduced to the knowledge and competence of others, I feel completely frustrated and overwhelmed…especially if it’s related to something that I feel that I SHOULD know how to do, I just don’t.

Perhaps this sounds ridiculous, but I just don’t know why I can’t accept that I don’t know.  Maybe being in a profession that cultivates and encourages knowledge, it’s difficult to accept not having it.  Hmmm…

All in all, life is good.  Still hanging on down near the most southern part of the US.  I’m feeling more encouraged than before, and I’m hopeful that seeing family during the holidays will do the trick.  Be hopeful with me…