“and i don’t want the world to see me/cause i don’t think that they’d understand/when everything’s made to be broken/i just want you to know who i am…”
~goo goo dolls

we wear the mask that grins and lies
it hides our cheeks and shades our eyes
this debt we pay to human guile
with torn and bleeding hearts we smile
and mouth with myriad subtleties
why should the world be overwise
in counting all our tears and sighs
nay, let them only see us
while we wear the mask
we smile, but oh great christ, our cries
to thee our tortured souls arise
we sing but oh the clay is vile
beneath our feet and long the mile
but let the world dream otherwise
we wear the mask
~paul laurence dunbar

“it is strange to be known so universally and yet be so lonely.”
~albert einstein

those are my thoughts…plain and simple. in the midst of everything that’s going on in my life, and despite all the people i know (and who know me/think they know me) i still feel alone. i know that part of this journey is supposed to teach me how to learn how to depend and trust God alone; however, it would be nice to have some friends sprinkled in there…you know, just as a little encouraging factor. it’s amazing how you go from talking and seeing people everyday, to not even really having a space in their lives. i guess it’s one of those “get in where you fit in” type of things…

ah well…at the end of the day, i just want to be me…