I’ve wondered several times why I made the move from Georgia to Florida. I had a good life in Georgia. Nice friends. Nice church. Good job. Good times.
I know that I moved to Florida to chase my dreams. Well, not really chase them so much as to see if this is what I really wanted for myself. I’ve been saying since my senior year of high school that I wanted to be a social studies teacher. Moving to Florida was my opportunity to make it happen.
This move has been one of the most difficult things I’ve ever experienced. I’ve definitely been put to the test. I frequently wonder if it was a mistake. I often feel like I take 3 steps forward and 2 steps back. I knew that progress doesn’t always come quickly, but I will confess that I thought it’d be easier than this.
My faith has sustained me, along with the reminder that I’m grateful for the opportunity to live my dreams. I realize that there are people out there with dreams that they wish they could pursue. So, even if this isn’t exactly how I would expect or desire for it to be, it’s still awesome in and of itself. But even more, I expect that God will move greatly in my life and I will be blessed for this huge leap of faith. No matter how I feel, I’m here because I’ve been blessed to be here, and that makes it worthwhile.
Remembering- Romans 8:18, Romans 4:20-21, 1 Corinthians 2:9, Proverbs 18:16…and also that it’s only when you extend outside of your comfort zone that you grow. To doubly quote Robert Browning: “Ah, but a man’s reach must exceed his grasp, or what’s a heaven for?” and “But what if I fail of my purpose here? It is but to keep the nerves at strain, to dry one’s eyes and laugh at a fall, and baffled, get up and begin again.”
But if you prefer the pop culture reference, maybe Kelly Clarkson got it right (at least I can identify when I think of this move):
“Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean…
I’ll spread my wings and I’ll learn how to fly
I’ll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I’ll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won’t forget all the ones that I love
I’ll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
I’m here now. I made it. It’s all about doing what I came to do, and making where I am where I want to be. I may have some work to do on that last one…but hey, I’m living my dreams. Honestly, life can’t be THAT bad.