I’ve wondered several times why I made the move from Georgia to Florida. I had a good life in Georgia. Nice friends. Nice church. Good job. Good times.
I know that I moved to Florida to chase my dreams. Well, not really chase them so much as to see if this is what I really wanted for myself. I’ve been saying since my senior year of high school that I wanted to be a social studies teacher. Moving to Florida was my opportunity to make it happen.
This move has been one of the most difficult things I’ve ever experienced. I’ve definitely been put to the test. I frequently wonder if it was a mistake. I often feel like I take 3 steps forward and 2 steps back. I knew that progress doesn’t always come quickly, but I will confess that I thought it’d be easier than this.
My faith has sustained me, along with the reminder that I’m grateful for the opportunity to live my dreams. I realize that there are people out there with dreams that they wish they could pursue. So, even if this isn’t exactly how I would expect or desire for it to be, it’s still awesome in and of itself. But even more, I expect that God will move greatly in my life and I will be blessed for this huge leap of faith. No matter how I feel, I’m here because I’ve been blessed to be here, and that makes it worthwhile.
Remembering- Romans 8:18, Romans 4:20-21, 1 Corinthians 2:9, Proverbs 18:16…and also that it’s only when you extend outside of your comfort zone that you grow. To doubly quote Robert Browning: “Ah, but a man’s reach must exceed his grasp, or what’s a heaven for?” and “But what if I fail of my purpose here? It is but to keep the nerves at strain, to dry one’s eyes and laugh at a fall, and baffled, get up and begin again.”
But if you prefer the pop culture reference, maybe Kelly Clarkson got it right (at least I can identify when I think of this move):
“Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean…
I’ll spread my wings and I’ll learn how to fly
I’ll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I’ll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won’t forget all the ones that I love
I’ll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
I’m here now. I made it. It’s all about doing what I came to do, and making where I am where I want to be. I may have some work to do on that last one…but hey, I’m living my dreams. Honestly, life can’t be THAT bad.
September 9, 2008 at 6:17 pm
Oh, okay, now I see why the writing is so technically great – you’re a teacher. lol. That makes sense. I think you felt something awaited you in Florida, so I have to believe that it’s there. Right?
September 9, 2008 at 6:36 pm
Don, I guess that’s correct. It was more of an adventure, and belief that this was the opportunity to go after my dreams. It’s just me, so the only life I’m directly affecting is mine (not a spouse, children, etc.). But at the same time, there’s so much life to live that I don’t want to wonder what if. I’ve already lived in more places in my 24 years than both of my parents and most of their family.
Now, if there IS something in Florida for me- I wish it would come find me!
September 12, 2008 at 2:10 am
sissy! u know that I know well the journey that our dreams can take us on. my dream of being an entertainment mogul I believed/ still believe lies here in Los Angeles some 3000 miles away from familiar. in the year that I have been here I have sharpened my craft but what has found me are amazing friends, wonderful experiences and opportunities…stronger faith…and more clarity about life, my purpose and my truest desires. You dear sister have witnessed everything that I have gone through (presumably more bad than good.) You have seen me lose faith and lose sight of my dreams… but even in all that I can say I have gained more than I lost. if I had to go thru it all again to get where I am now…i would! I say that to say, stay in there. Believe in ur dreams. anything worth having is worth the struggle!
September 13, 2008 at 3:55 pm
Be encouraged! You are making a difference already in their lives! I know this from way up here in NC. And, wait – you will get better at this crazy profession…
Be sure to email us if you have any questions about anything… Sorry, it took us so long to respond last time… It was a hectic time for us… Be blessed!!!
September 15, 2008 at 4:49 pm
I’m sure it will, if that’s what your heart truly desires, it will.