I just knew I had one more week. At least that is what I was telling myself. My “last week at work” to do list was growing by the minute, and though Preacherman had put me on his own version of homestay/bed rest, I was determined to knock out a bunch of tasks at home in our “last weekend before baby comes”.
Except in our “last weekend before baby comes”, the baby actually came.
No, but for real. Thank you, Lord, for this most beautiful blessing.
We’ve made it through our first week, and it’s been a mix of good days, better days, sleepiness, tears (from him and from me), and the best baby snuggles. Oh, the snuggles are everything. Like, drop everything and snuggle.
Baby Ethan arriving early (yet on time), has been yet another reminder of what God has been teaching me all year, which is:
- I got you.
- I run this, not you.
- You’ve got what you need. Just trust me.
Throughout my pregnancy, we saw God’s faithfulness and provision over and over again and in the most unexpected places. As I struggled with understanding the magnitude of what was to come, I heard God speak to me, saying:
“I will provide the people, or I will provide the power. Either way, I will provide.”
And yes, that promise has been fulfilled over and over again.
But then there’s the other reminders (some gentler than others) that I am not in control. Which, for my perfectionist heart, can lead to so much fear. And over and over again, God would come through in ways that just left me feeling so encouraged and loved.
More than anything, I wanted to “be ready” for Ethan’s birth. With this being my first child, I had no idea what that really meant, but it was super important that we have everything, in the right place, ahead of time, because if we don’t, it will all fall apart. So I talked with friends, reviewed list after list online, ordered some items, and got to work.
And he came 4 days early. And we didn’t have everything. And what we had wasn’t all in the right place. But- it didn’t fall apart.
Any “item” that I so urgently needed- was in place. But what had really happened; the most necessary thing that was ready- was that I WAS READY. Despite how I felt, I was ready. And perhaps it is fitting that the first step in this journey of parenthood was a reminder of how much God has equipped me to be this sweet boy’s mama, and that I can trust Him for everything else.
Oh my sweet boy, you are such a blessing to your mama’s heart. I can already see how God has an awesome plan for your life.
Until next time…
Be encouraged! Peace and Blessings!