LIFE IN BLOOM

Learning How to Flourish in God's Grace


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a year in review

this year isn’t quite over, but i saw this posted on Bobby’s LiveJournal and i figured i’d take a stab at it myself…

As we say goodbye to 2005, let’s look back and remember what happened.
You, in review:
*Age: 22
*Location: Chapel Hill/Athens
*Work: UNC Housing, Office for Minority Affairs, UGA Center for Continuing Education
*School: UNC-Chapel Hill/University of Georgia

This year, have you:
*Fallen in love: yes
*Fallen out of love: not quite
*Had your heart broken: more than once
*Cheated in love: perhaps
*Cheated in life: i sure hope not
*Cried: yeah man
*Laughed so hard you peed your pants: at least once a week
*Dumped somebody: no
*Lied to get ahead: no
*Gotten married: no
*Had a baby: no
*Adopted a pet: no, but I became an aunt to Nicole’s dog, Frankie
*Gotten a new job: UGA Center for Continuing Education
*Learned a new skill: I learned how to let people in

That’s life:
*What is the biggest lesson you learned this year: tried and true, with God, ALL things are possible
*What was the hardest thing you did: moving to a new state alone
*What was your greatest accomplishment: the baptism, graduating from UNC
*Most painful experience: waiting, learning, growing
*Favorite memory: ASB 2005, Graduation Cruise, Senior Year as a whole, BSM (everything encompassing)
*Greatest change in yourself: being able to be encouraged in every situation
*Something you’re proud of doing: trusting God enough…

People:
*What one person would you thank for what they’ve done for you this year: My mother
*Who did you learn to hate: I don’t believe in hate
*Who did you learn to love: They know who they are
*Who taught you the best lesson: Everyone I encountered taught me a valuable lesson
*Who made your life most miserable this year: life will never be miserable- as long as i’m alive, it’s GREAT
*Who gave up on you this year: I dont think anyone did
*Who believed in you: My family, the Whole, Fati, TJ, Crystal, Mitch, all of the OMA Staff, Juelle, Superstar, Kev, Kenji, Jason, Fred, Ty, Rell, Twilla, P-Dub, Fe, Lauryn, Nigel, Julian, and many, many, more…

Favorites:
*Restaurant: Applebee’s, Olive Garden, On the Border, Ruby Tuesday
*Place to shop: Express, MAC Counter, Gap
*Drink: Water (and the occasional Miller Lite)
*Food: Lasagna, Mac and Cheese
*Music: Israel and New Breed
*TV Show: Desperate Housewives, Girlfriends, Gilmore Girls, 7th Heaven, Real World, Making the Band 3, Run’s House, Everybody Hates Chris
*Hang out: Goldies, Top of the Hill, East End Martini Bar, Classic City, anywhere with my girls or anywhere with P-Dub, Fe, and Lauryn

Resolution for next year: Stay positive, stay focused, stay faithful, stay encouraged…


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“and i don’t want the world to see me/cause i don’t think that they’d understand/when everything’s made to be broken/i just want you to know who i am…”
~goo goo dolls

we wear the mask that grins and lies
it hides our cheeks and shades our eyes
this debt we pay to human guile
with torn and bleeding hearts we smile
and mouth with myriad subtleties
why should the world be overwise
in counting all our tears and sighs
nay, let them only see us
while we wear the mask
we smile, but oh great christ, our cries
to thee our tortured souls arise
we sing but oh the clay is vile
beneath our feet and long the mile
but let the world dream otherwise
we wear the mask
~paul laurence dunbar

“it is strange to be known so universally and yet be so lonely.”
~albert einstein

those are my thoughts…plain and simple. in the midst of everything that’s going on in my life, and despite all the people i know (and who know me/think they know me) i still feel alone. i know that part of this journey is supposed to teach me how to learn how to depend and trust God alone; however, it would be nice to have some friends sprinkled in there…you know, just as a little encouraging factor. it’s amazing how you go from talking and seeing people everyday, to not even really having a space in their lives. i guess it’s one of those “get in where you fit in” type of things…

ah well…at the end of the day, i just want to be me…