So, again, I SHOULD be doing lesson plans or reviewing benefit information. But I’m not. I’m writing and I’m watching the opening ceremonies of the 2008 Olympics. I now have the motivation necessary, but I just don’t feel up to it.
After completing my first ‘week’ at work (I started yesterday, so it was a really short week), I feel slightly more comfortable with what I’m going to be doing. I met the other new teachers, and we all have different backgrounds and a different story. Everyone seems nice and excited about the opportunities at the school, but I think we all feel SLIGHTLY overwhelmed because there is SO. MUCH. TO. DO. before school starts on the 18th.
Between feeling a little overwhelmed/nervous about work, I’ve also been feeling REALLY homesick/GA sick. I think it would be really good to be around someone that I know. I miss being able to go see people, or have dinner and happy hour with friends, or just being able to hang out. It’s REALLY hard. For any of my folk that read this- PLEASE come visit me soon. Like, really. It will make ALL the difference. There’s part of me that wants to quit while I’m ahead, and go back to where everybody knows my name. But there’s another part of me that wants to prove that I can make it here. Let’s hope that part of me wins.
All in all, I’m still here. As Antwone Fisher says, “I’m still standing…”. I’m not sure how I feel about being strong- at least at this point. At any rate, I have to do what I have to do. God willing, I’ll do it well.
“I can’t think of any one reason on why I want to be a surgeon. But I can think of a thousand reasons why I should quit. They make it hard on purpose. There are lives in our hands. There comes a moment when … it’s more than just a game. And you either take that step forward. Or turn around and walk away. I could quit. But here’s the thing. I love the playing field.” ~Grey’s Anatomy
“The will of God will never take you where the grace of God will not protect you.” ~unknown
August 10, 2008 at 10:05 pm
I agree 100%, there is TOO MUCH TO DO in preparation for the upcoming school year. I’ve been teaching for a couple of years and I still have butterflies in my stomach as I approach the first day of school here in Gwinnett (Aug. 11). Things will progressively get better in all aspects in a matter of time. Be encouraged, stay positive, keep a mindset of victory!