from today’s devotional:

Prayer: Source of strength, open our hearts to sense people’s emptiness and hunger, and open our mouths to share your good news. Amen.

THOUGHT FOR THE DAY:We are God’s messengers to people who feel empty and alone.

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my devotionals always speak to me–different ways for different days. today, i was really feeling my devotional because i know what it’s like to not really WANT to share the good news of Christ to others. it’s not always cool, in college, to live your life sold out for Christ. despite that, i cannot deny that god is everything to me. i am so incredibly blessed and god has done so much for me–opened up opportunities, placed people in my life…god is so good! there’s a song that i love (of course i don’t know the name or the artist) that describes it: “not enough time to tell you how He saved my soul. not enough time to tell you how He made me whole. not enough time to tell you how He set me free- He’s been so good to me. God is so good, i just can’t tell it all.” that’s truly how i feel…despite all the things i’ve been through, i STILL have joy. and guess what…this JOY that i have- the world didn’t give it and the world can’t take it away. so to tie all this in to my devotionals, i suppose that i need to remember that (as kb says) christians are evidence of christ’s existence…which means that i must be vocal and vigilant about the good news of christ. *blessings*

on another note…i’m really feeling john legend:

“…i know i misbehaved…and we’ve both still got room left to grow. and though love sometimes hurts, i still put you first…we’re just ordinary people. we don’t know which way to go. cause we’re ordinary people. maybe we should take it slow…take it slow…” ~ordinary people

“…times is hard and things are a changin’. i pray to God that we can remain the same. all i’m tryin’ to say is our love don’t have to change…” ~it don’t have to change

“…And in the end I know that we’ll find, a love so beautiful and divine. and we’ll be lovers for a lifetime, and I’ll stay with you…” ~stay with you

i love the whole album…but those songs are really close to me…

at any rate…i have my interview with UNC school of education today and i’m really excited. i know that god is ultimately in control of everything that takes place…so i’ma go in and just handle my business the best that i can. i’m trying not to be nervous…but this is a life-altering type of thing. in the end, GOD is in control…*i have peace*

so that’s all…i’m excited…life is goooooooooood…

“this morning, i woke up feeling brand new. i jumped up feeling my highs and my lows…and i’ve been thinking i got my reasons just to get by…”



“i can feel the breaking of day. i won’t look back, i’ll just keep pressing my way. i can feel the breaking of day. my blessing’s got to be on the way. i may not be able to see it, but in my heart i do believe that jesus, he knows all my struggles; and soon he’s coming to see about me…”

i’ve never been the type to truly listen to music. while i love different songs and different artists, it wasn’t until recently that i’ve been able to really say that i FEEL a song. over break i heard a pastor talk about how music can usher you into the spirit and now i really understand what that means. yesterday, i heard “breaking of day”…this TIGHT gospel song that i hadn’t heard in a long time and it really picked up my spirits. i feel a lot better about a lot of things and i’m dealing with all of the situations a lot better.

i love how god uses different situations to groom us and to teach us, and ultimately, to make us better servants for him. as i said in my spoken word, “i’m glad i can look at my past and see that troubles don’t last; that when my soul was broken, god placed it in a cast.” god has been there for me so much and i could never thank him or praise him enough…

on another note, yesterday was kind of a nostalgic day for me–it would have been my grandmother’s 85th birthday; had she lived. she passed on when i was in 9th grade and it was definitely a difficult time for me. she lived down the street from me and i spent every afternoon with her from the time i was like 7 up until i started playing sports in middle school. even then, i still saw her every afternoon; in that we always made granny’s house a stop on the way home. i have never, in my life, known a stronger, more beautiful woman. she was so gracious, so humble, so god-fearing, just an all-around awesome woman. my soul has forever been enlightened by the life that she has lived…

so, i guess i feel slightly rejuvenated, and feeling more and more like my “old self”. whatever that means. i take that back…i don’t feel like my “old self” because i’m not who or what i used to be. i’m growing into who i am becoming….

“There came a time when the risk to remain tight in the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.” Anais Nin